Lameee.

Andy got a new phone.

And I don't know how to use it :/ ha.

One thing I STRONGLY DISLIKE.

Why does it take for someone to know that their former friend is going through something very difficult for them to actually come and apologize? I don't fucken get that.



So this whole time you knew that you messed up, but it took you a few words from someone else to go apologize to them? I don't get that.



And then you wonder why people don't like you or they give you dirty looks. They already know the type of scumbag you are, that's why. jsrdhtguiosh;lgja



You and your childish acts of innocence acting like you really do mean to apologize is honestly all bullshit to my ears.



One thing I know for sure is that you find your true friends only when you're in the worst case scenarios such as losing a house, dying in the hospital, in jail, etc.



And even if people do help you out in those situations, at least one negative thought has run through their minds. So the word and definition of friends is specifically defined.


Nobody has the definition until they leave this world.


But even if you don't, you can at least try to find it before you mess up and realize that you don't know what you have until it's gone.


All of the crap you did was commone sense and all just childish acts of selfishness. That's it. And most of the time, you proved that you still have a lot to work on.



Ugh, whatever. Just makes me mad when I hear or see stuff like this going on.



It's really pathetic to me. And they still try walking with their heads held high. Pfft!



Ha.

My New Song.

Aww, Jenny.Lynn (: She's honestly the only girl that I get along with fairly well, and I can tell her anything. I'm so glad we met. She already knows too much, so I'm not letting her go so easily, haha.

I love how we can text for like a whole day and before we know it, it's time to go to bed (:

Yeah, I know, I just met her like not even three months ago, but I know she's different from all the other 'friends' I've had. And the best thing about it is that she's a GIRL, haha.

I think it was meant for us to meet. I have never had a mature friend that's a girl. Most of the friends I had were guys. But now I have Jenny (: and she has me<33

I would write more, but I'm gonna lose signal on my computer like any minute, haha. Yeah, lame, I know. But hopefully, my internet gets fixed this weekend so I can catch up on my blogging. I miss it, ha. I love you, Jenny<3

Wow,

it's amazing to see how much one grows up in just a short amount of time.







All you need is a tiny push; the rest of the way is all up to you.






I still have a lot more to go, but I think I've gotten some of the basics down.






Thank you, my love<3

Not stupid.

At this point I hate myself. I love him. More than anything. I have no one anymore. He's out of my life.









Goodbye.

One more thing:

Mr. Harms: What do you do with your instruments before you play with your band?

Kid: Tune it....?

Mr. Harms: Then why would you not tune your voice to the music as well?

Kid: ......

Mr. Harms: You see, why do you want the music to be in tune when your voice doesn't match it at all?

Haha, Harms is talking about like hardcore bands and all those other types of music that scream, haha. I find it true. And funny. Haha.

Hm,

Short stories are pretty interesting and fun to write.



It's like showing the world what goes on in your mind (:

Hoy,

fue un dia bonito (:



Haha, Spanish. Yeahh, it was a really pretty day today. It wasn't sunny, but it rained in May. I thought it was pretty.

Very blissful.

Boy,

performing is tiring! Haha, but it was fun, I'll have to admit (:



I really enjoyed working with Jenny and Daylene. Even though the costumes were thick, hot, and ugly, I enjoyed it, ha.



My day started off pretty hectic, but Jenny helped turn everything around. I needed make-up, a curler, and food, and she provided all of it. I can't thank her enough<3

Hope to perform with her again someday :D

Man, oh, man...

These past two weeks have been hectic! But hard work pays off. At least I hope it will, haha. The PBL thing is tomorrow and I perform with Jenny and Daylene finally. Oh my gosh, and the end of the year is exactly TWO WEEKS away from today!

Gosh! I still cannot believe it's here. Well, yes I can. I've been in school for too long this year. I NEED a break.

Man, I hope I can finally stay in one spot for next year and graduation. I actually want to have SOME sort of memories when I look at my yearbook next year. It makes me sad sometimes that I don't have that many, ha, but I guess I'll take what God wants to give me.

I will blog again soon hopefully. I miss having my own internet :(

One Simple Act of Kindness.

I'm actually growing up. I feel it. I realize more things on my own now, and I'm trying to be a better person all on my own. Trying not to be so angry.

It's hard work. But I think I can pull it off.

I officially don't like quitting now, ha. And I think I've finally learned to let go. I still dislike people, but then I sit back and realize that I can be better.

If you don't sit down and learn to observe your surroundings and try to change the things you dislike about them, then things are never going to be any better and you complaining won't help at all either.

That is fact.

So, the next time that somebody gives you attitude or yells at you, don't get even. Get nice. Depending on how well you know the person, ask them what's wrong. And if you barely know the person, try to think about their lifestyle at home.

I've learned that everyone is different and that everyone learns their own way and at their own pace.

It's not easy. Believe me, it's not. But if you really put your mind to it, doing something like this can possibly even save a life.

Pass it on.






(:

Long Time.

Yeah, it's been a while since I've blogged, or so it feels like it, ha. Well, life has been pret-ty good these past couple of days. Some complications between me and the parents, but eh, things'll work themselves out.

So, I met a new girl. Her name is Rebecca, but she prefers Reba, ha. Yeah, she's pretty cool, and smart. I have her for Algebra II and we hang out during lunch together. I like meeting new people. You have a lot to say when you don't know a person cause you have to get to know them.

Yeahh, I now believe I have a chance in passing Algebra II and Physics, thank God! Uhm, choir's still kind of 'eh', but I can't wait for the performances. Ugh, and that retarded PBL project is really gey. I haven't even done it :p Go figure, ha. Oh! I have a B+ in English :DD That's somewhat of a shocker for me, haha.

Oh, and I'm excited for Drama Day :D I get to see 'Fiddler on the Roof' for free (: AND I get to not go to any of my classes! That's pretty cool, ha.

Man, I can't believe we only have FIVE more weeks left of school! D: That's a tiny bit of time now. Well, for me it is, and I've actually been in school for too long this year :p

So yeah, I'd better get back to doing what I was doing, which was preobably nothing, ha. Yeah, I need a life or a job.

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Global Warming.

It is ninety-four degrees in the middle of APRIL! :O

How scary is that? Like, honestly? Haha, wow.

Good day to go swimming or running through the sprinklers, haha the beaner way! (:

Yeahh, I'm staying inside today and taking a cold shower in a bit.

Summer so soon?

I hate the summer :p

It's too hot!

Steak and Alfredo.

I really love my family. Like, really, I do. I love how they try to go all out for us on our birthdays even if we don't have money, ha. Thank God for food stamps >.< haha.

Yesterday, they had like a small dinner for me with steak, fettuccini alfredo, and baked potato outside in our front yard. It was nice. My mom invited my aunt, grandma, and Davinna and Juan's family. Then I invited my brother from another mother, ha, Bryan. Then my bro invited Justina and Joel. It was pretty nice.

Personally, I would have just preferred to have the dinner with my family, but it turned out to be really nice. Oh, and then Andy bought me a cookie cake from the Nestle Factory like I had been saying that I wanted for months. It had pandas and musical notes on it. It was really cute<33 and then he bought me Sara Lee cheesecake to go with it, haha, cause I wanted that too. I love him, he's such a sweetheart. I wish I would have spent more time with him though. Well, yeah, overall, it turned out to be really nice.

So, tomorrow's my real birthday (: I'm not really excited, ha. Another year closer to death, ha. Nah, I'm totally kidding. It's a bit exciting, but also nerve-wrecking. It's another year closer for me becoming an adult D: Ha, yeah, I sort of dread that thought. It's only for now, cause once it's here, it's here and I won't be able to dodge it any longer. I'm ready, for it, I think, ha. Just don't want to deal with the whole stress of paying off bills, haha, but who does? Haha.

Four Twenty.

Only fifteen more days :DDD





And no, I don't get smoke weed on that day.
I have never done that and don't plan on doing it anytime soon either.






It's my SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAYYY! (:






I don't really want to do anything special. I just really want a bunny, haha. A dwarf rabbit would complete me, haha.





Oh my gosh! Seventeen years of living on this earth already?? Haha, doesn't seem like a long time ago I was just playing with Barbie, haha.





I need to figure out my life soon, ha.





Well, I'm somewhat excited this year (:
I wish for a bunny, and nothing else :D