Happy Birthday, Daddy! (:

Haha, today was fun thanks to Andy<33



Took my family out to El Siete Mares restaurant in Pomona. And we all had a really great time. I love the mariachi from there; haha, I'm such a beaner :p




But I don't care, I got to sing with them and my baby; it was really fun (:
Then my grandma sang Happy Birthday to my dad, and my uncle Jose sang too!
Awww, I hadn't heard him sing in forever...



All in all, it was a great night.





We laughed, and joked, and talked, and sang the whole night. We haven't been out like that as a family in such a long time! Thank you so much, baby<33 We owe you big time!




I know my dad really enjoyed it. That was the most important thing. Thank you, my love, for everything! Muah!<333




Happy 37th Birthday, Daddy!<33
I love you<33

Cockroaches of the Sea.

Now I KNOW why they call them that!





I had to peel shrimp AND clean them out, which means touch their poop.





It was soooo nasty :/




Ew.
Aha.

And Her Name Was Happy....

It's nice to have someone that understands where you're coming from. Someone who knows what your history is. Personally, I don't like my past, but I love how I can look back and reminisce and realize how much I've changed.

I went from being this depressed, angry girl to being someone who loves life and can find a bright side to most things now. The change in my life can only be viewed as a good thing. I love God and try to put him before any decision I make more often now.

I've run into a lot of people these past few schools that I've been to and not one person has made as much of an impact on me like Andy has. I'm more than honored to call him my boyfriend and to be able to be apart of his life is simply a blessing. He has taught me so much, and I'm still learning from him. I love spending everyday with him.

And I also love how he believed that I was going to grow and make a change for myself. Nobody has ever shown so much strength in watching me grow as he has done for me. Without him, I know that I would not be the person that I am today. I may not have many friends at all, but I know damn well that this man is my best friend.

I don't care what anybody else has to say about me being in his life cause now I know why they don't like me or this relationship. They're angry with the fact that from the day he met me, we've been inseperable. He spends every second of his day with me whether it's through text or if he's sitting right next to me. Reality of this whole situation is that everyone's angry because he'd rather be spending time with a seventeen year old. Another fact is that I think I act more mature than any of his friends ever have. That kind of amazes me.

I don't need to be rude and talk crap about people behind their backs just to make me feel important or above anyone else. I'm myself I don't need the world's attention to know that I'm worthy of something. Yeah, I may not have brand new clothes or I may not be as pretty as others are, but I at least have my dignity rather than to just talk crap about something that I know absolutely nothing about and make an ass of myself.

I know that there are those out there that can't stand me, and that's okay, I don't need you in my life. But you have to learn that in life you can't always get what you want. If Andy's not in your life, then you know why. He's in mine because I was there for him and I talked to him not just when I needed him, but HE needed someone to be there. If you don't have him in your life it's because you took him for granted. You felt that he was only going to be there for you when you needed him to. Well, you were wrong.

Take advantage of the things you have because in life, you won't know what have until it's gone. That's a promise. And that's the truth. I've leaarned that. My friends have learned that. And now you've learned that. Andy isn't just a friend. He is an amazing friend that everyone wants to have. But if you can't learn to grow up and keep up at his pace, you'll lose him.

The reason why he and I don't have many friends isn't cause we chose not to. The people around us just chose to quit and not keep up. But that's okay cause in the end, it all comes down to just Andy and Debbie. I have him, which is something you all are angry about and I don't care, and he has me until the bitter end.

So go ahead and keep talking. It's your loss anyway. (:

Yay (:

It's been a while since I've blogged, haha. I miss it...

Things have been good lately. Had a friend living with me for like two days. I miss her<3 But hopefully she's doing better now.

Uhh, my phone's about to be disconnected soon, so I apologize to anyone trying to reach me in like a week or two for not answering, ha. My dad has his court case in a couple of weeks; we're anxious for that to come. It'll determine what's going to happen next month. If I'm staying here for senior year or not. Not too excited for that, but whatever God wants to give me, I will take because I love him (:

I need to get out more often though. Things with the parents are getting a bit edgy...
Hopefully I can get that job Reba's trying to get me. If not, then oh well. Nothing new, ha. I'll just have to keep trying.

Oh, and today is Andy's and my One Year and Six Month Anniversay<33 I'm so happily in love with him ((: He makes me so happy. We're supposed to go to the Olive Garden today :D Haven't been there since Valentine's Day. I'm excited, haha.

So yeah, that's pretty much it. I can't wait to start my senior year on August 10th. Finally! Hopefully I can keep up at least a 3.0 GPA, haha. Haven't done that in a while. I should be able to since four of my classes will be electives (: I'm so proud of myself for making it this far even though I didn't exactly have a 4.0 GPA all these years. But I'm here, where a lot of people aren't. And I'm gonna graduate which a lot of people don't do, ha.

Well, that's it for now I guess. Gonna go talk to my Penguin. I miss him. Didn't see him today :/

Well, goodnight (:

Big Girls DO Cry

We find it everywhere
It's deep within this ground
This life our worlds have intertwined
We learn to let it go
And we leave it all behind

To play pretend and laugh out loud
We forgive the euphoric pain
Your shattered voice
I don't want it anymore
Scream away the hurt

Let's not pretend to fight
But don't cry, let's try to let it go
I don't want to
It's what's right

To play pretend and laugh out loud
We forgive the euphoric pain
Your shattered voice
I don't want it anymore
Hush away the hurt

Pen to paper, ink to skin
Cry the letters
Except what's deep within...

Sometimes Sane Isn't So Sane...

Sometimes insanity isn't so insane
And kids aren't such a pain
A left turn can turn out to be right
But the grass isn't always greener on the other side.

A glimpse of hope is tattered apart
And then you learn it was never your heart
The other cheek has not been turned
Is this a mistake?
Are these even the right words?

Someone, anyone; Am I even alive?
Hello...? Hello...?

I give and I give; What is this world?
And how will I survive?

Maybe sane isn't so sane
And maybe perfect was never so perfect
So lost, so lost

We cry in unison...

A perfect mistake to end this equation.

Lameee.

Andy got a new phone.

And I don't know how to use it :/ ha.

One thing I STRONGLY DISLIKE.

Why does it take for someone to know that their former friend is going through something very difficult for them to actually come and apologize? I don't fucken get that.



So this whole time you knew that you messed up, but it took you a few words from someone else to go apologize to them? I don't get that.



And then you wonder why people don't like you or they give you dirty looks. They already know the type of scumbag you are, that's why. jsrdhtguiosh;lgja



You and your childish acts of innocence acting like you really do mean to apologize is honestly all bullshit to my ears.



One thing I know for sure is that you find your true friends only when you're in the worst case scenarios such as losing a house, dying in the hospital, in jail, etc.



And even if people do help you out in those situations, at least one negative thought has run through their minds. So the word and definition of friends is specifically defined.


Nobody has the definition until they leave this world.


But even if you don't, you can at least try to find it before you mess up and realize that you don't know what you have until it's gone.


All of the crap you did was commone sense and all just childish acts of selfishness. That's it. And most of the time, you proved that you still have a lot to work on.



Ugh, whatever. Just makes me mad when I hear or see stuff like this going on.



It's really pathetic to me. And they still try walking with their heads held high. Pfft!



Ha.

My New Song.

Aww, Jenny.Lynn (: She's honestly the only girl that I get along with fairly well, and I can tell her anything. I'm so glad we met. She already knows too much, so I'm not letting her go so easily, haha.

I love how we can text for like a whole day and before we know it, it's time to go to bed (:

Yeah, I know, I just met her like not even three months ago, but I know she's different from all the other 'friends' I've had. And the best thing about it is that she's a GIRL, haha.

I think it was meant for us to meet. I have never had a mature friend that's a girl. Most of the friends I had were guys. But now I have Jenny (: and she has me<33

I would write more, but I'm gonna lose signal on my computer like any minute, haha. Yeah, lame, I know. But hopefully, my internet gets fixed this weekend so I can catch up on my blogging. I miss it, ha. I love you, Jenny<3

Wow,

it's amazing to see how much one grows up in just a short amount of time.







All you need is a tiny push; the rest of the way is all up to you.






I still have a lot more to go, but I think I've gotten some of the basics down.






Thank you, my love<3

Not stupid.

At this point I hate myself. I love him. More than anything. I have no one anymore. He's out of my life.









Goodbye.

One more thing:

Mr. Harms: What do you do with your instruments before you play with your band?

Kid: Tune it....?

Mr. Harms: Then why would you not tune your voice to the music as well?

Kid: ......

Mr. Harms: You see, why do you want the music to be in tune when your voice doesn't match it at all?

Haha, Harms is talking about like hardcore bands and all those other types of music that scream, haha. I find it true. And funny. Haha.

Hm,

Short stories are pretty interesting and fun to write.



It's like showing the world what goes on in your mind (:

Hoy,

fue un dia bonito (:



Haha, Spanish. Yeahh, it was a really pretty day today. It wasn't sunny, but it rained in May. I thought it was pretty.

Very blissful.

Boy,

performing is tiring! Haha, but it was fun, I'll have to admit (:



I really enjoyed working with Jenny and Daylene. Even though the costumes were thick, hot, and ugly, I enjoyed it, ha.



My day started off pretty hectic, but Jenny helped turn everything around. I needed make-up, a curler, and food, and she provided all of it. I can't thank her enough<3

Hope to perform with her again someday :D